Oh, God

Oh, God; You are just a Man whose possessions are limited to Antiquated Virtues like Compassion, Kindness and Forgiveness..
and hence, I Pray for Thee..
.

Final Adieu

I was Dead and a Thousand came and Mourned;

But, hardly could I find any, who

Looked at Me and Craved my Eternal Bliss.

Alone I lay, Frozen and Waiting,

Only for the Life to crawl back;

So I could Bid the Final Adieu.
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I will Rise again..

Keep Looking; Out, at the Horizon,
for one day, I will Rise again with All My Might;
and, You will Envy
.

Helping Hands

Never wish for a Helping Hand, for Those Hands which once Pushed You Up will eventually Pull You Down...

The Teacher and the Student

A Bad Teacher was Once a Bad Student
.

Two Choices

At any Point in Your Life, You are given Two Choices: either to, Rule the World or To Be Ruled by The World.

Fear is afraid of Rulers while Followers are afraid of Fear.

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Irony

Isn't it Ironical that Love is the Greatest Revenge?

Close Your Eyes

To Believe some Lies, you Need to Close Your Eyes.

Closing Your Eyes will enable you to Overlook those Truths that would Shatter Your Beliefs forever.

This will never change those Unfortunate Truths, but it really enables you to avoid the UnEnding Pain of a Broken Heart borne out of Devastated Beliefs.

Close Your Eyes..

SleepLess Nights

To Pacify my Soul, as You Illuminate my Life with Your Smile..

To Warm my Spirit, as You shelter Me in Your Embrace..

To Feel those Caring Fingers, as they scroll through my Hair..

To Listen to the unending Melodies through Your Voice..

To Loose Myself, in the Sweetness of Your Kiss..

These.. Are the thoughts that Batter Me into sleepless Nights;

And, I end up Shattered.. with Tears and Despair,

because , You are Not Here with Me..
.

A New Life..

My Love.. You are the most beautiful Dream I have ever Seen

Of all my Dreams, You are the only one, I would Love to Live..

A glimpse of Your Smile brings me Peace, in this life-time of War

It beckons me, like a Dawn, like a New Life, like a New Begining..

It gives me Hope and makes me Dream..

Your Presense makes my Feel Privileged..

and it is your Warmth that Breathes Life into this Corpse

No More do I Fear, as from now on You would be there For Me.. With Me..

Now, I really Want to Live..

For a Moment..

For a Moment, I Thought, It was You, whom, I was Awaiting All My Life;
And I Wish, It Had Been You..

But, at times, Life keeps me Waiting;

Now in this Darkness of Uncertainity, I am guided only by Hope. I realize now that Hope is the Sweetest thing in the World..

As they say, Things Worth Possessing Are Worth Waiting For..

And hence, I am Waiting.. Silently Awaiting My Destiny..

The Last Moments

The Last Moments are Always the Best and the Most Beautiful ones.

It is only in those last few moments, you realize how deep you were in Love. It is only then, you agnize how much you Belonged to and how you will be Remembered.

Even the greener pastures awaiting you on the other bank will appear less alluring, as you will be deeply missing your Heart Beats.

Now, I am cognizant of that the Paradise resides where your Heart belongs to and not where your Mind wants you to be.

I wish.. I had yet another Life, yet another Chance..

The Last Symphony

The Last Symphony of my Life will decode my Silence.
Through it, will I speak those Untold words.

My Last Symphony will reveal the depth and beauty of my Feelings, Emotions and Thoughts.

All those Questions hurled at me in my LifeTime will be answered, all those shatterring Defeats I had withstood will be Justified and all those Victories I had earned will be Glorified.

Silence will Prevail after the Last Symphony of My Life. Through it, will be revealed the meaning of my Life

Happiness

The real Happiness lies in Sharing what you have Earned, rather than With Holding them.

Your Accomplishments started as a compelling Dream, Passion drove you forward - towards your goal.
You withstood all the hardships and the challenges this world had posted in your path, before you could achieve it.

At the end of that long and seemingly impossible Journey, you came out Victorious.
It made yourself Proud, brought Satisfaction to your Mind, Happiness to your Heart and a beautiful Smile on your face.

Now celebrate your Accomplishments - not as your individual success, but as a Victory of the entire Mankind. Consider it as a Triumph of Human Determination and Will Power over the Ocean of Impossibility.

Now, let your fellow beings share your Happiness.
Share what you have Earned - with them; Not to make them aware of your achievements but - inorder to make them feel Proud, bring Satisfacition to their Mind, Happiness to their Heart and a beautiful Smile on their face.

Let the whole world Illuminate - Not with the brilliance of Intellectual Enlightenment, which is confined to an Individual; But, with the Luminousity of unconditional Love, Compassion, Kindness and Sharing.

May the Enlightenment Not be confined as an Individual possession - Let there be Light in every Mind and Happiness in every Heart.

BirthDay

Today is my BirthDay

Fighters

Real Fighters seldom use Weapons.

They Quit only when they are Done. Fight them Not - for they grow Stronger when they are Opposed.

Fighters are driven by their Passion; They do Fail, but Never do they get Defeated.

Failures can only Fuel their Burning Desire to move ahead, Hardships and Sufferrings make them Tougher and in the End they would become so Strong that the entire World would have to yield to Their Determination and Will Power.

Fighters make their Enemies Weaker by making themselves Stronger.

Heroes and Their Heroics

Heroes Die, But Their Heroics Live On Forever

Life is the Only Chance You have got to do that Heroic deed, which will make you Immortal.
Your Heroics will make you a Legend that will Live On, long after you are Gone.

Make Your Life worth Remembering - Not by the Fascinating Dreams You Saw;
But by the Hardships and Sufferrings you were subjected to, by the Shatterring Failures you Withstood and by the Impossible Journey You had Endured to Realize Your Dreams and Everything You Believed In

The Sixth Sense

The Sixth Sense is nothing but the Common Sense.

Only a Very Few have it.

Blind, Deaf and Dumb

Some are Blind because they can't See; while Others are Blind because they never Look

Some are Deaf because they can't Hear; while Others are Deaf because they just don't Listen

Some are Dumb because they can't Speak; while Others are Dumb because they Seldom Stop Speaking

Today..

Today, I will keep Smiling; just because I dont have a reason to Smile

Today, I will be Happy; just because I dont have a reason to be Happy

Today, I will Love everyone; just because there is No One out there to Love Me

Beautiful and Divine

Smile at the one whom you Love the most, your smile will be Beautiful;

Smile at the one who has Hurt you the most, your smile will be Divine

Smiling through my Tears

I am glad that today, I smiled through my Tears

Strength or Weakness

Never before did I realize that what I considered as my Strength was indeed my Weakness

The Eagle and the Ant

Once, there lived an Ant, who dared to come out to the world from his burrow. He was astonished by the beauty of this world. It was then, he saw a large tree near the burrow where he had lived. He though how nice it would be to climb to the top-most branch of this tree, to its top-most leaf. He fancied that, it would be the summit of this world and from there he could see the entire wolrd in its absolute beauty and might.

With this dream in his mind, he started climbing up the tree. All those who surrounded him, started questioning him on the reason behind his dream. They told him, he would never succeed. But these words only made him more stronger and more determined.

Day after day, he continued with his seamingly impossible dream, with no thought of a Retreat. He Failed many times, but was never Defeated.

At last, one day, he did reach the top of the tree. He was overjoyed that he has fulfilled his dream. From there, he looked out to the world. It was so fascinating that he could barely believe his eyes.

From there, he looked up into the Sky. There, he saw an Eagle, flying up in the sky. He wondered how wonderful a creature it is. He started thinking how nice it would be if he could make friends with her.

Then, he noticed that the Eagle is slowly coming down. She appeared so weak to fly and he was worried to see that. Suddenly, from no where, a stone came and struck Her down. She fell on to the ground, deeply wounded.

He alighted quickly from the tree top and ran to her. She was crying out of pain and for him it was an unbearable sight. He helped her to get up and asked her if she was alright. He asked her to get back on her wings and fly up into the Sky. He told her that she was meant to conquer the skies and not to lie wounded on the ground.

But, she wasn't confident enough to try it again. She told him that she feels like she can never reach back to those heights again. She looked at the sky and sighed deeply.

He nursed her wounds and helped her to climb to the top of his tree. He told her that he is just an Ant, but still he managed to conquer this huge tree. Now he is living on top of that tree and not any more in a burrow like what other ants do. He told her, when he started his attempt to climb this tree, every one around him believed that he could never succeed. But he alone believed that he could do it.

Similarly, she is meant for the Sky and to conquer great Heights. All she has to do is to believe in herself and make an attempt to do it. Slowly her tears dried out and he could see a smile on her face.

He felt her smile to be more wonderful than the beauty of this world itself. He couldn't explain her how happy her mere presence made him feel. But he never wanted to possess that happiness after all she was meant for the Skies.

Slowly she made an attempt to fly and after some initial jinks, she could fly to a greater height. She was so overjoyed that she reached back to the top of this world. That made her so happy that she forgot to Thank her poor little friend - the Ant.

He was watching all these from the top of the tree. I could see tears rolling down his little cheeks. I surmise they are out of Joy, Or are they out of his sadness of losing such a wonderful friend.

Daily, I could see the poor little Ant climbing up the Tree. He reaches the top most leaf on it and gazes the Sky.
There, he sees his friend - The Eagle - flying up in the Sky. Now she has reached so high that she could barely see Him.

At times, I could see him gazing the Sky and sighing as he misses his friend so dearly. There, even at the top of his accomplishments, he feels like he is left all alone.
From there, he watches his dear friend, laughing out of unending joy and reigning the skies. At times, I could see him desparetely trying to make an effort to smile at her; perhaps, even amidst his loneliness, he is trying to be happy - just because his dear friend is happy.

Love

Love is Madness at its very Best

Miles Away, Your Destiny Awaits You..

You are in a Journey.

All those dreams which you saw were glimpses of your destiny.. Your Destiny has already revealed itself to you through those Dreams. Those Dreams fascinated you to take up this adventure - To Follow Your Dreams - This will be an unending Journey. Your life is the only medium you have got to pursue this Journey.

During this Journey, you came across plenty of set backs, shatterring defeats. You were even subjected to a lot of criticisms. You felt like the entire world has turned against you. You were brutaly lashed, pulled down and humiliated by those who never cared about you.
They - could never Hear you, because they never bothered to Listen;
could never Understand you, because they never tried to Feel.

Many times, you found yourself in a deep well pain and troubles - neither could you find a helping hand nor could you hear any consoling words. You had to pull yourself out of that deep well which made you exhausted.

Now, you feel like, your Dream has moved further away from you. You feel like you are in the middle of a desert and your Dream appears like a mirage. You have become unsure whether its realy there or is it just a Dream..
At that moment, You started thinking about a Return Journey. You decided to flee
like a whipped dog, to the point where you started. You felt like, that could bring you peace, from all the agonies that you are going through now.

If you decide to run back now, how long will you run. You came from your mother's womb - Do you really think a return journey to where you originated from, is really possible?
Believe me, my friend, If there is any thing Impossible, that is nothing but a Return Journey.

Let me tell you my friend, no man has ever acheived anything worthful by fleeing away from the troubles they faced. No Dreams were ever realized by those who lost their heart in middle of their Journey.

You are now facing your biggest Enemy - its the Doubt in You. All those failures that you have encounterd so far in your Journey, have created a Doubt - which has now enslaved you. You feel like you have just lost the way to your Destiny, but you are finding a lot many ways to Retreat.

My friend, You have come a long way towards your Dream. If you feel like, you are surrounded by an Ocean of Impossibility - Always Remember that, Neyond this Ocean of Impossiblity, lies the unending Paradise - your Destiny.

Unleash yourself - break off, from all those chains of Fears and Doubts that are trying to engulf you. Be Focussed and Sail through - for one day, you will reach your long awaited Destiny.

Alas, when you reach there, you will realize that, it was this seemingly impossible Journey, that made your Life worth Living than the Destiny itslef.

You are in a Journey and this Journey is the only purpose of your Existence.

To Those Magnetic Eyes..

Until I saw them, I never realized that Eyes are the most Powerful Magnets in the world.

I never stood a chance infront of Those Poetic Eyes. They mere glance could throw me out of my senses.

Very often, Those Eyes whipped me as if I am a Slave. But still, I never wanted Freedom from them..

If it is as their Captive, What wouldn't I do, to Live On Forever..
I would guard my Life, so that Those Magnetic Eyes could steal it away from me, again and again and yet again..

Now I realize, of all the Sedatives I ever had, Love is the most effective one.

Goodness and Greatness

It is really Good -
To Love
To Remember and
To Respect

But, its really Great -
To Be Loved
To Be Remembered and
To Be Respected

Its easy to achieve the state of 'Goodness'. But, it takes all the efforts of a Lifetime to Earn the state of 'Greatness'.

Loneliness

I hate this bloody loneliness - Again, again and yet again, it reminds me of my failures. It never lets me move on, leaving behind my disastrous past.

This loneliness has got a suffocating smell and often it engulfes me with a mysterious silence. At times, I do hear some strange noises, but they aren't, in any way, pacifying or melodious. They resemble the footsteps of an uninvited guest, which scares me a lot.

In this dark and lonley corner, I can feel the frightening presence of a stranger. I looked up, at the sky, but couldn't find a single guiding star.

Now, I do realize that, it is the loneliness that follows every failure that defeats a person completely. In his loneliness, he is left with a lot to tell but no one bothers to listen. I feel, Lucky are those who have got Listeners around them.

I pray for a helping hand which would pull me out of this death well, before its too late.

I wish She would guide through the valley of Hope towards the Kingdom of Happiness.

Passion

A Masterpiece is created by Passion and not by Genius.

All Great Acheivements were accomplished by those who had that burning Desire called Passion in them. It is this Desire that kept all Great Men going.

Passion is a Dream that Never Lets You Sleep.

എന്‍റെ പ്രണയം

എന്‍റെ പ്രണയമാകുന്ന മഴയില്‍ അവഗണനയുടെ കുടയും ചൂടി അവള്‍ നടന്നു
അവള്‍ക്കെന്നും എന്‍റെ പ്രണയം ഒരു ശല്യമായിരുന്നു.

ഇടക്കെപ്പോഴോ അവള്‍ തന്‍റെ കരം എന്‍റെ നേര്‍ക്ക്‌ നീട്ടി
മഴ തോര്‍ന്ന.. ഒരായിരം മഴവില്ലുകള്‍ വിരിഞ്ഞ മാനം പോലെയായി ഞാന്‍..

ഒരു കുട്ടിയുടെ കുസൃതിയോടെ അവള്‍ തന്‍റെ കരം എന്നില്‍ന്നിന്നും പിന്‍വലിച്ചു..
എന്‍റെ പ്രണയം അവള്‍ക്കു ചുറ്റും പെയ്തുകൊണ്ടേയിരുന്നു..

വീണ്ടും അവള്‍ തന്‍റെ കരം എന്നിലേക്ക്‌ നീട്ടി..
അവളെ സ്പര്‍ശിച്ച ആ നിമിഷം എന്‍റെ ജീവിതത്തിലെ ഏറ്റവും നിര്‍വൃതി പൂണ്ടവയായിരുന്നു

പെട്ടന്നോരുനാള്‍ അവള്‍ എന്നില്‍ നിന്നും തന്‍റെ കരം എന്നില്‍ നിന്നും പിന്‍വലിച്ചു..
നിസ്സന്ഗ്ഗമായ മൗനവും ഒരായിരം ഓര്‍മകളും സമ്മാനിച്ച്‌ അവള്‍ മെല്ലെ എന്നില്‍ നിന്നും നടന്നകന്നു..

എങ്കിലും.. എന്‍റെ പ്രണയം തോരാതെ പെയ്തുകൊണ്ടെയിരുന്നു..

Welcome to My Solitude..

My Love.. You are,

The Queen of My Kingdom..

Dew of My Desert..

Fragrance and Beauty of My Garden..

Essence of My Soul..

Tune and Passion of My Heart..

Angel of My Paradise..

and the Destiny of My Life..

Welcome to My Solitude..

Wonders..

All Beautiful things were nearly Impossible in their Begining.

You are Destined to Win

If you Fail continuously, but still keep Trying.. you are Destined to Win..

REMEMBER ME..

REMEMBER ME, when I am GONE..

For I am, ALL I have DONE !!

Madness..

Madness is much more Common than Common Sense.

The Past and The Future

The PAST has already been written..

The FUTURE, still awaits to be WRITTEN.. by YOU..

World and Life

This World is big enough for Us to hide from each other For Ever, like we do hide from Ourselves..

Mean while, this Life is small enough for Us to Meet Again..

പരലോകയാത്രയ്ക്കിറങ്ങും മുന്‍പേ

വഴിവായനയ്ക്കൊന്നു കൊണ്ടുപോകാന്‍

സ്മരണതന്‍ ഗ്രന്ധാലയത്തിലെങ്ങും

ധൃതിയിലെന്നോമനെ നിന്‍ ഹൃദയം

പരതിപ്പരതി തളര്‍ന്നുപോകെ

ഒരുനാളും നോക്കാതെ മാറ്റിവെച്ച

പ്രണയത്തിന്‍ പുസ്തകം നീ തുറക്കും

അതിലന്നു നീയെന്‍റെ പേരുകാണും..

അതിലെന്‍റെ ജീവന്‍റെ നേരുകാണും..

ബാലചന്ദ്രന്‍ ചുള്ളിക്കാട്

Your Laughter..

Laugh at the night, at the day, at the moon,

laugh at the twisted streets of the island,

laugh at this clumsy boy who loves you,

but when I open my eyes and close them,

when my steps go, when my steps return,

deny me bread, air, light, spring,

but never your laughter

for I would die.

- Pablo Neruda

What wouldn't I do..

What wouldn't I do,

To see your smile once again..

To hear you once again..

To be with you forever and ever..

If God grants me only a few seconds with you,

How many births wouldn't I take.. only to Live those few seconds with you..

How many deaths wouldn't I embrace.. only for a Life, with you.. for you..

Alas, my Love.. I found my Long Awaited Destiny..

If Love is worth fighting for.. then I would batter down the entire world for you.. My Love..

Some birds aren't meant to be caged..

Some birds aren't meant to be caged.. their feathers are too bright;

And when they fly away, the part of you knows that knows that it was a sin to lock them up .. Rejoice..

But still, the place you live-in is that much more drab and emptier that they are gone..
I guess.. I just miss my friend..

- Shawshank Redemption

My Nth Love @ First Sight (?)

ഞാന്‍ ആരെന്നുപോലും അറിയാത്ത നിന്നിലൂടെ ഞാന്‍ തേടുന്നത് എന്നെത്തന്നെയാണ്. ഈ യാത്രയിലെവിടെയോ എനിക്കു നഷ്ടപ്പെട്ട എന്നെ ഇനി ഒരിക്കലും തിരിച്ചു കിട്ടില്ലെന്നു കരുതി ഞാന്‍ മറന്നിരുന്നു.. ആ നഷ്ടവുമായി ഞാന്‍ പൊരുത്തപ്പെട്ടിരുന്നു .. പക്ഷെ നിന്നിലൂടെ ഞാന്‍ എന്നെ വീണ്ടും കണ്ടുമുട്ടിയ ആ നിമിഷം മുതല്‍ ഞാന്‍ വീണ്ടും എന്നെ തിരഞ്ഞു തുടങ്ങി.. വീണ്ടും എന്റെ പഴയ എന്നിലേക്ക്‌ തിരികെയെത്താന്‍ ഒരു മോഹം. അതിനായി ഞാന്‍ ആദ്യം കണ്ടെത്തേണ്ടത്‌ നിന്നെയാണ്. കാരണം നീയാണ് എന്നെ വീണ്ടും എനിക്കു പരിചയപ്പെടുത്തിയത്. ഇന്നെനിക്കു കൂട്ടായുള്ള എന്റെ ഈ ഏകാന്തത എന്നെ കീഴടക്കുമ്പോള്‍.. അന്ധകാരത്തിന്റെ ഈ തടവറയില്‍ എന്റെ നെടുവീര്‍പ്പുകള്‍ പോലും എന്നെ ഭയപ്പെടുതുമ്പോള്‍ അറിയാതെ ഞാന്‍ കൊതിച്ചുപോവുകയാണ്.. ഒരിക്കല്‍ കൂടി നിന്നെ ഒന്നു കാണാന്‍ കഴിഞ്ഞിരുന്നെന്ങില്‍.. നിന്റെ മിഴികളിലൂടെ, എനിക്കു നഷ്ടപ്പെട്ട എന്നെ ഒരിക്കല്‍ കൂടി കാണാന്‍ കഴിഞ്ഞിരുന്നെന്ങില്‍.. ഈ ഖബറില്‍ നിന്ന് രെക്ഷപ്പെട്ടു വീണ്ടും ആ പഴയ ഞാന്‍ ആയി എനിക്കു ജീവിക്കാന്‍ കഴിഞ്ഞിരുന്നെന്ങില്‍..

Long Live My Solitude..

Stay Away.. Stay Away..

You are an Uninvited Guest intruding into my Lonliness..
Let my Soul Rest In Peace in my Solitude.

Inside this Coffin.. made of my Solitude, along with my old Self, lies all my unfulfilled Wishes.. unrealised Dreams.. unachieved Ambitions.., deeply burried in their endless Sleep.

AMEN..

AMEN..

AMEN For Ever And Ever..

Not any more.. is my Soul pestered with those shattering Defeats..

My mind is calm.. as its not any more bothered about that long Awaited Destiny.. which I am enjoying now..

I can boldly Look Up as I wont have to bow my Head again.. I am already Conquered by My Destiny.. and I wont have to Surrender before my Enimies Again..

My Enemies have now disregarded me for My Cowardice.. They now Ignore me.. and for them, now I am not even an Enemy..

For you, I may be an Epitome of Failure.. Cowardice..

But for me, I am an Achiever of My long Awaited Destiny..


Stay Away.. Stay Away..

You are an Uninvited Guest intruding into my Lonliness..

Let my Soul Rest In Peace in this Coffin of my Solitude.

Long Live My Solitude.. Long Live..

ശിക്ഷ

ഇനി ഈ കാരാഗ്രഹത്തില്‍ നിന്ന് എനിക്ക് മോചനമില്ല. എന്‍റെ ചെയ്തികള്‍ എന്നെ ഈ അവസ്ഥയിലാക്കി. സ്വതന്ത്രമായി ജീവിക്കാന്‍ എനിക്ക് കൊതിയുണ്ട്, പക്ഷെ, ഞാന്‍ ഇന്ന് ഈ അഴികള്‍ക്കുള്ളിലെ ഒരു കാഴ്ച്ചവസ്തു മാത്രമാണ്. ജീവിക്കാനുള്ള എന്‍റെ അവകാശം നിഷേധിക്കപ്പെട്ടുകഴിഞ്ഞു. ഇനിയുള്ള എന്‍റെ ജീവിതം മരണത്തിനുവേണ്ടിയുള്ളതത്രേ..

എന്‍റെ ഈ അവസ്ഥയില്‍ എനിക്ക് ആരോടും പരിഭവമില്ല, വളരെ വൈകിപ്പോയി എന്ഗിലും.. എന്‍റെ കഴിഞ്ഞ ജീവിതത്തെ ഓര്‍ത്തെ ഞാന്‍ ഇന്ന് പശ്ചാത്തപ്പിക്കുന്നു..

ലോകം, എന്നെ സംബന്ധിച്ചിടത്തോളം, ഈ അഴികള്‍ക്കുള്ളിലൂടെ ഞാന്‍ കാണുന്ന ഒരു മായ മാത്രമായി. ഈ ലോകത്തിന്‍റെ മനോഹാരിത എന്നെ മാടിവിളിക്കുന്നുണ്ട്‌.. പക്ഷെ..

ഒരു പരാജിതനെ ഏറ്റവും വേദനിപ്പിക്കുന്നത് അവന്‍റെ ഏകാന്തതയാണ്.. ഇന്നെനിക്ക് കൂട്ടായുള്ളതും എന്‍റെ ഏകാന്തത മാത്രമാണ്..
ഇന്ന് ഞാന്‍ കേള്‍ക്കുന്ന ശബ്ദം എന്‍റെ തന്നെ നിശ്വാസങ്ങലാണ്..
ഞാനിന്നു സംസാരിക്കുന്നത് എന്നോട് മാത്രമാണ്.. സ്വന്തം ചോദ്യങ്ങള്‍ക്കുമുന്നില്‍പോലും എനിക്കുത്തരമില്ലാതായി..

ഒരു സത്യം ഞാനിന്നു മനസ്സിലാക്കുന്നു.. എനിക്ക് ലഭിച്ച ഏറ്റവും വലിയ ശിക്ഷ മരണമല്ല, എന്‍റെ മരണത്തിനായുള്ള ഈ കാത്തിരിപ്പാണ്.. മരവിച്ച ഈ കാത്തിരിപ്പ്‌!!

നമുക്കു വേണ്ടത്‌

സഹതപിക്കുന്ന മനസ്സുകളല്ല...
കരയുന്ന മിഴികളല്ല...

ചിന്തിക്കുന്ന മസ്തിഷ്ക്കവും
പ്രതികരിക്കുന്ന നാവും
പ്രവര്ത്തിക്കുന്ന കരങ്ങളും
പ്രാവര്‍ത്തികമാക്കാനുള്ള സന്നധതയുമാണ്...

Awaiting my DESTINY...

I was silently awaiting my destiny. There was no one near me to disturb my silence. I could feel the tone of my heart... it was missing the main note. I felt my breathe.. it lacked the warmth of life. I felt my body lacked its soul. I continued to wait.. I felt my patience running out.. I felt my soul revolting against me.. but still I remained silent. I searched her in my solitude.. in the rhythm of my heart.. In the feel of my breathe.. in my body.. But I failed to find her.. I couldn't get her feeling.. I missed her warmth. I felt the universe was heading towards a sudden halt.. The fear of death.. my revolting soul.. made me afraid. But.. still.. still.. I continued awaiting her... and alas.. to the joy of my heart.. to the barren land of life.. she arrived...

I felt the silence around me slowly bidding adieu.. I rhythm of my heart started catching up.. its main note.. The warmth of life assured me the arrival of my long awaited destiny. I started feeling my soul. My breathe regained the fragrance of life. I could feel her in my heart.

I was eager to talk to her. My ears were waiting to hear her speak. But my tongue lacked the strength. And slowly.. slowly.. my soul started regaining the courage and I felt myself to be back in life. I asked her where were she.. I asked her why she had left me.. I asked her the reason for my solitude.. I wanted to hear her voice. My heart paused for its next note. But she remained silent and it made me worried. I felt myself guilty for her silence. I felt my soul taking up revenge on me. I feared the presence of death. I kept on asking her.. why.. why.. but she remained silent.

I had to pacify my revolting soul. I had to be alive. I had to keep my heart in rhythm. But I could feel only silence around me. I looked around.. there was no one out there to help me. I could find no helping hand.. I could hear no encouraging words.. I felt like running a loosing race.. I started feeling the chill of death.. the pain of solitude.. my painfully weeping soul..

And alas.. to my paining soul.. to the last note of me heart beat.. to the fading fragrance of my breathe.. to the low warmth of my life.. she said..

"Listen carefully to my silence..
I am speaking through it..
It sounds my feelings, thoughts and replies..
My silence is louder than my words.
If you are unable to understand my silence,
You will never understand my words.."

Kottuvally : our Eden

Kottuvally is a small and a beautiful village. Its surrounded by rivers on its three sides and it adds a lot to its scenic beauty. The villagers include mainly of middle class working people belonging to different religions but definitely sharing the same culture. All are friendly, caring and hardworking. Thrikkapuram temple and St. Sebastian's church are the main centers of cultural and religious activities. The village has roughly over 3,500 families with a gross population touching something beyond 40,000. Chemmayam river draws the eastern and southern boundaries of Kottuvally. This river has influenced the Kottuvallians a lot. The western boundaries are strengthened by a vast collection of Pokkali rice fields which indeed form our main food reserve. Prawn cultivation is also active in these lands during off-seasons. Strong winds from these fields keep us cool during summer. Beyond these fields resides the Ezhikkara river which separates us from Ezhikkara. In the north our village merges with places namely, Pazhangattuvely and Kaitharam. The NH 17 reaches almost 2 km near to Kottuvally when it passes through Koonammavu and Cheriyappilly.

Some useful links about Kottuvally are given below:-

http://wikimapia.org/353278/

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kottuvally

http://www.answers.com/topic/kottuvally

Tonis : about me

ഏകാന്തതയുടെ തടവുകാരനോ.. അതോ, ഏകാന്തതയുടെ കൂട്ടുകാരനോ.. എനിക്കറിയില്ല..എന്ഗിലും, എന്‍റെ ഈ ജീവിതത്തെ ഞാന്‍ ഇടയ്ക്കൊക്കെ ഇഷ്ടപ്പെടാറുണ്ട്. സന്തോഷം ഇന്നെന്നെ സംബന്ധിച്ചിടത്തോളം വല്ലപ്പോഴും വരുന്ന ഒരു വിരുന്നുകാരന്‍ മാത്രമായി.. എന്ഗിലും, എന്‍റെ ഈ ഇല്ലായ്മയിലും ഞാന്‍ സന്തുഷ്ടനാണ്..